My friends No, my brothers. Your music has single handedly kept me alive I do not in any way want this to be a petty fan boy katatonia worship thread though, I must ask a question... I have been pondering this ever since I became a fan of your music Your music contains an aura that could only be created from people who have seen hell.... depression, despondency, guilt, shame, sorrow, naturally, like any good musician, you keep your personal lives very separate from the music you make. This leads me to my question. Your teenage years, young adult years, when you were most likely experiencing that thing we call 'life', which obviously inspired your music. What did you go through, my brothers, that lead to such a powerful outlet for negativity I consider myself a very instable person, emotionally. I'm 19 and have been sent away to treatment centers/boarding schools, and am currently in an outpatient program.... I've experienced sorrow beyond belief. I have 10 cigarette scars and used to drink 3 shots in the morning in order to make it to school. Seeing all that sorrow, beauty, and despondency. Seeing what I put my loving parents through, my 2 younger brothers.... All the guilt and the shame of the lies, the alcohol, cocain, weed, failing school.... I don't know It lead me to your music I had always been a fan... But never like I am now... I have since recovered from the misery of winter 2006 But my question remains Joans, Anders... What inspired such darkness?