The "What Are You Doing This Moment" Thread

cackling my ass off at work reading that last page

 

so much hilarity in this thread i can't even respond to it all right now

 

The wife is getting into LaVeyan Satanism and looking into ordering books on it and lesser/greater magick.

 

now i'm waiting for @HadesRagnazrath to just come to Dallas and be a homeless person here
i'll be his tour-guide

 

She could join a heavy metal forum and tell everyone about the stories she reads and about how the Earth is actually the shape of a banana.

 

She does play keyboards.
She had a dungeon synth project.

 

Well until she still needs to study her books for 16 years before she can claim to be the best musician ever and have the required knowledge to share her reading on the internet.

 

Just started my new job as a medical technologist today. Now that I got a job im gonna buy a WRX this weekend, since I now need my own car (havent had one in years).

 

She ever release anything? I’m a casual fan of the genre. Should have my Hedge Wizard vinyl shipping any day now.

 

She released one track and that's it. She planned on working more but lost interest and focused more on her drawing stuff.
She never played keys before this either. This is her first time fucking around with the instrument

 

@Terasophe
did you actually get around to writing that song about me yet??

 

Spoiler

 

Nope but I will. Ive been writing stuff pretty frequently here this month.

 

so i saw three more vets over the weekend and yesterday, including a specialist today and im not hearing anything good really. Three of em said that when theres a tumor on the spleen it is almost always cancerous, and even with surgery she would only get a few months at most. Which im not sure is even enough time for her to recover from the surgery. but still there is a slim chance it might not be cancerous but the only way to know is if they open her up. One thing i know for sure is i dont want her to die on a doctors table, if she goes she will go surrounded by her loved ones at home. The first three doctors said that the surgery will be tough on her and that she might not even make it and if she does it will only be for a little while. The "specialist" i saw today wanted to go straight for surgery, said that she will make it through the surgery and slapped with an $10k estimate. I wanted to get an ultrasound(which the first vet recommended) but the fucking "specialists" didnt have an ultrasound machine or tech available or someshit. One of the vets today talked me out of getting a blood transfusion(just to make her feel a little better until i decided what to do), but i think that's what ill be aiming for tomorrow. All the vets are telling me she is not in pain, but rather weak because she's losing blood(some has leaked into her abdomen ) ... and they are also all basically telling me that she is going to pass away soon no matter what i do. I dont know if i should put her through pain and suffering in her last few days with the surgery, let her pass away surrounded by her loved ones at home(since they ALL said shes not in pain) or maybe(i cant even get myself to type this..) call the vet to come over and help her cross the rainbow bridge. Then again, what if the tumor isnt malignant? Fuck my life i dont now what to do I'm so lost and broken right now.

 

If it were me with that information I'd let her go at home without surgery, but it's easier for me to say that than it is for you to do it. Animal doctors are not that much different to human doctors, they are not infallible, mistakes in diagnosis could be made, mistakes in surgery could be made, it sucks when we have to put the lives of pets and humans under such conditions but it's also one of life's harsh realities. If she's not in pain I really don't think I could put her through surgery which is going to be a painful road to recover from if she can do it.

 

the way she keeps looking at me is just heartbreaking. not a face of someone who isnt in pain

i fucking hate the fact that we have to trust these guys with the lives of our loved ones. From what ive seen and experienced throughout my life, doctors/vets/etc have done more harm due to their greed and negligence than good. Most of them are more concerned about the business aspect of things over everything else. Makes me sick to my stomach.

She's super bad in the mornings. Doesnt want to get up, doesnt eat, gums are pale ... then she slowly perks up(if i can even use that here) as the day goes

 

just took an adderall. someone sold me one and i chewed up the extended release beads in there so it should hit me harder. i think im feeling it but im not sure

my parents might let me back in. i got bored and spent yesterday driving around unlicensed with no registration, insurance, or anything. road was closed and there was detour so i got lost in the hood at night and i ended up pulling into a sketchy food lion parking lot and spending the night because there were too many cops. was fine except for the fucking street sweeper that started banging around for like an hour around 1 am. now im just sitting in my car in my parents neighborhood

if u wanna know why i got kicked out, it was cuz i ordered a "suspicous" package which was just a box lmfao

 

It's hard to know what's going on in the heads of animals but you forever hear about people, oldies especially, who have lived together forever and then once one dies the other doesn't last much longer. Your girl lost her friend not long back, whether she's in physical pain might not be the case, she might be in emotional pain

 

yeah this all started after he passed away. They were also lifelong partners

 

It could be her way of saying she's ready.
Of course that's no easier on you but it's possible.