I still very much struggle with the fact that I have the ability to do anything that isn't work and or home related things. And I'm doing my best to drive that thought out of my head... Its very hard for me and its so very confusing to feel freedom. I'm not used to being able to see friends without a partner involved. I'm not used to going out and doing things on my own. I'm not familiar with how to be a person for myself. I've been controlled my whole life and having this sense of autonomy is frightening.